Not as fictional as you think

Lonliness chewed up my heart just to spit it out.
swallowed by darkness, hope in me creates more doubt.
with silence on my lips, in the shadows I dwell
Reminiscing on the pain, now seeing how far I fell
I look back on my own stupidity, choking in the
lies
the truth was calling out to me, only now I hear
it's cries.
I see the world differently
And for this I feel the sting
Rebel against the cliche
I am the song nobody will sing.
A crying and bleeding me is left as the result
I dont do it to myself, look in the mirror to see who's fault.
To the stupid voice of reason; you will never
set me free,
My endless torment taking human form,
You will be the death of me.
Though I physically hold the bullets,
know your the responsible figure
That put the gun between my teeth,
And made me pull the trigger...