Your True Love that No Longer Loves You Back

Life is hard when it loses its meaning,
speechless, hopeless, lifelessness.
Life is hard when you can't find a new beginning,
filled with depression, a loss of happiness.
Life is hard when you can't stand living when your heart stop beating,
when your hopes, goals, and dreams start to evenness.
Life is hard when the one person you truly love and care for forgets you exist,
Your mind starts screaming.
You're not able to see what you're going to miss.
Your mind wanting to erase but can't.
Your heart starts bleeding.
Out goes the happiness.
Out goes being cared for.
Out goes the hope of putting back together the already shredded pieces of your heart.
Not being able to find all of it, because most of it still belongs to him.
Stuck to him.
Never receiving those pieces back.
Impossible to repair.
The only thing that can help repair it is him.
But you know he won't.
Out goes everything you wanted and were looking for.
Slipping so easily through the never returning door.
Never being able to experience the wonderful love you had for him ever again.
It's all gone, and never coming back.
You wish you never met him, but glad you did.
Because without him, you never would've know what love could be like.
You wanted to spend every single second of your life with him.
Never wanted to let him go.
He told you the same, but his feelings changed.
He left you in the dust without even letting you know.
When you finally find out that it's over you cry and cry.
Realizing that it's not just you and him that's over.
It's your life that's ending, too.
You feel you have no reason to live.
You want to make all of it go away.
You don't want to be here anymore.
But your friends follow you, keep talking to you, calling you every night just to make sure you don't ruin your life.
They tell you "It's just how life is".
But you know they don't understand.
Your dreams faded away.
Your hope crashed down into a forever fiery flame and burned.
Now you sit up in your room writing on a piece of paper of how the man of your dreams tore your life into pieces.
He doesn't know.
You doubt he'll ever know.
But if he finds out, he wouldn't understand and he wouldn't care.
And that what truly hurts you.
You loved him.
You cared for him.
You wanted him.
You needed him.
You had him.
But you lost him.
And I know you're never going to be able to come anywhere close to explaining the true pain that dwells throughout your life.
Sorrow.
Pain.
Regret.
Hurt.
Loss.
Unloved.
Not cared for.
Sadness.
Still being in love with him.
Hatred.
Jealousy.
Forgetfulness.
Speechless.
Hopeless.
Lifelessness.
Heartless.
Depression.
And much, much more.
Having a true love that no longer loves you back.

Inspired by: My first love & ex, A.F.