Falling In Love With The Devil

Our lives in a different decade,
You are so close, so far away.
Sitting here, next to me.
I'm so blind that you're all I can see.
Green eyes floating along in a sea of blue,
My heart that hammers eagerly for you.
You're right here, our very skin meets.
But I'm lost in my mind...wandering thoughtless streets.
And there she is, the devil by your side.
She's whispering something to you, something you don't try to hide.
A flame of excitment is ignited in your eye.
I sit here with my absent mind...
Telling myself I didn't ever try.
And I feel something wet on my cheek,
A tear that crawls down as I desperately try to speak.
You choke the words from my voice,
Your smile never really even gave me a choice.
I don't want this battery of my heart,
I'm running from the end; chasing after the start.
I'm relaxed when you're not here,
Your sick love is my one enjoyment; my greatest fear.
So you sit there, ignoring me.
As the devil whispers to you, "She's so far away, sweets. Lost in her own decade as your skin softly meets."
And you give me a frantic look,
While I stare dully ahead, my mind as readable as a book.
You see the thoughts swimming in my eyes,
This pain I can no longer disguise.
"Take my hand," she whisers in your ear.
And now I'm astonished as you act like you didn't hear.
Your pale fingers crawl closer to mine,
All I can see are those green eyes...
Without realizing it, I'm holding your hand.
This is not going according to her plan.
I don't notice you, I tell myself.
As you let go and walk away with her,
I realize that you were just trying to help.
Your back disappears through the oak doors.
As my tears tumble gently to the floor.
This is my neverending battle, my precious war.
These are the bombs thrown at my soul,
This is me walking away from my goal.