Life of a Loner

I look on whats all around me.
I see a friend better off.
I see a loved one disappeared within my very eyes.
She was already better off.
She doesn't need me.
He never loved me.
He has another.
Why does my heart long for him?

All of what happened,
Such a long time ago.
My sadness is locked within my very soul.
It releases when no one is around,
It surrounds me and takes over me.

For where has happiness been?
True Happiness.
What is that.
I have not felt that in such a long time.
What do I need?
Cry away my pain?
In the arms of which I very much love?
Get help,
And talk to strangers who know nothing of me?

I lie alone!
I can't do this alone.
But alone is what I am.

A friend told me that I am prettier than her.
When I look at her.
She has the look,
The boys,
The friends.
The High status.
If I look at myself,
I will never be like that.

I will never be pretty.
I will never be smart!
I will never be like all the pretty girls.
I will never have that personality that other girls have.
My friend says things that she does not mean.
She says it's her personality.
It's not.
She has the perfect body,
The smarts,
The moves,
The walk,
The talk.
The Athletic skills

Look at me.
I'm a geek,
Dork.
Just pathetic..
I don't have anything..
It all comes to me,
This is why,
This is why I am like this.
I'm just not good enough for anything
Isn't it obvious?
HE left for something better.
She has better friends that I would ever be.

Doesn't that suck?
A life of a loner,
Hurts in a way..
Where everything goes well,
Now just a loner..