Honesty.

Honesty
Another girls fingers
running through my hair
I'm wishing it was you
God this isn't fair
I think of my mistakes
Of all the stupid things I've said
I wish i could go back
But those pages have been read.
Now she wants to kiss me
I can see it in her eyes
expectant face leaning forward
She's fallen for my lies
But this isn't who I am
I'm just not that kinda guy
Nobody could replace you
But you pushed me till i tried
Now i sit and look at her
I realize my mistake
While waiting could have killed me
Deaths something i could take
And those aren't just words that rhyme
Its how i truly feel
Every second that passes by
This pain is just too real
And now she wants to talk to me
I hope shes catching on
I tried to see what would happen
Now i just want her gone
A nervous laugh escapes my lips
She asks if somethings wrong
Theres no words that seem to fit
Yet they're falling off my tongue
Theres no right way to say this
I just start to blurt
Tears begin to sting my eyes
While i vocalize the hurt
and she thinks she understands
She says I'll "be OK"
that she doesn't mind me bleeding
because I'll scar someday
But i know the truth
I know the way i feel
Wounds like this are just too big
To ever fully heal
So i look her in the eyes
and explain that she cant know
my eyes glance toward the door
as i say "Its time for you to go".

What now?