It has been
One year, five months,
And six days,
Since I've heard from you.
The sky is
Dark, threatening,
Like it never was,
Like its not supposed to be
Blue.
It has been
One year, five months,
And seven days,
Since I've heard from you.
I feel
That I'm getting closer,
And closer still,
To the edge.
It haunts
And my voice carries
As I call out to you,
Or who I used to know you,
As.
It has been
One year, five months,
And fifteen days,
Since I've heard from you.
These old
Sorrowful songs,
Aren't causing anything but pain,
But are opening up some old wounds.
It has been
So long now that
I can't keep track.
I can't
Face the truth
And realize
That you're never coming back.
It has been
So long now
That I'm beginning to lose
My mind.
These drugs
That I'm on now,
Do nothing to soothe
What's left of it.
It has been
Just about three years now,
Since I've heard from you._
It has been
Just about three years now,
Since my heart has been broken,
Just about three years
Since I've been planning this
Slow suicide.
Aching heart,
Ever-aching life,
It's been so long since
I've heard from you
How do I know you're alive?
The phone rang,
Your number showed,
On the caller ID,
But I was too out of it,
Too delusional.
I picked up the phone,
Waiting to hear your sweet 'hello'
Since it's been however long
That I have heard from you
'Hello, babe I miss you,
I thought I'd give you a call,
I hope you haven't forgotten me,
Babe, I hope you've missed me too.'
So sick of this waiting,
I thought I'd be happy
Just to hear your voice
But it was like
Poison to my ears
I ripped the phone
From its place on the wall,
Threw it to meet
Its opposite.
A million pieces
Just like me.
Gave a dry chuckle
Slunk to the floor.
It hasn't been so long
Since I've heard from you last,
But it's been awhile since
You've heard from me.
Gather myself up,
And wipe my eyes,
Tonight is the first night
I haven't cried myself to sleep.
