Why do i do this

I sit and wonder
Why do i do this?
i sit and think,
why do i love you
i try to understand
and i really don't
what did i ever do
to deserve this?
I sit here and think,
i cry at night
because i don't know what i want
you want me, but do i want you?
i sit and try to figure out these thoughts
of mine
but its really a state of mind
I'm not ready to explore
Why do i do this?
why do i sit here
and become depressed
b/c u love me and i love you
but what do i really want
i hold back cause you scare me
i don't know why
why do i do this?
i wanna go far in this relationship
but how do i when all i do is hold back
how can i go forward and forget the past?