Haven't been the Same...

Noticed the way you cut and move

Kind of reminds me

Of back in the day caught in my room

Knife in my hand

Blood pouring from my wrist

Writing out my final letter

Saying how much I won't be missed

Digging for lights inside the hole of my heartache

Lost in the way I shouldn't go

Waiting for someone else to

Show me the way of this hole

Laying lifeless on the floor

Ending my own life

Couldn't take it

Had to end all the strife

Startled to wake up in the cold of denial

Scratching to gain back some control of this twisted dream

I hid from the light inside the home of my darkness

Where nothing was as it seemed

The voice through the door said I was alone

But how could I be

I was surrounded by people

Them not letting me

Said I was a danger

A danger to myself

I wanted them to shut up

So I grabbed the knife off the shelf

Running from myself

But have nowhere to go

If only I could let you see

If only you could know

What goes inside

The cage that I call my mind

Turning tricks in this dream

That has no concept of time

I threw my whole life

Straight down the drain

Everyone said ever since three years ago

I just haven't been the same