The Sea of Lonlyness

I'm in a sea of people,
But I'm alone in all.

I walk around the darkness of my heart,
Waiting for someone to heal the brokenness of it.
I have no one to talk to.
I have no one to hug when i need it.
Just curled to my little ball balling my eyes out.
I can not turn to friends nor family.
What will they know?
What will they care?
I'm standing right here.
In this sea,
No body takes a glance.
No one will notice.

Will I have to do something stupid to make them notice?
Do I have to scream it at them?
My past still haunts me.
All the flashbacks of what happened,
All come back.
In a moment of time.

I live just to live.
Feels of no purpose here,
Just waiting,
Just feeling alone.

In the sea of people I stand,
I stand for no reason.
I can't even find myself in the sea of lies my friend has drowned me upon.
Just confused
Just standing.