Bitter words

Ending in harsh bitter words
biting back my tongue
trying not to say what i feel
hoping that its all a dream
and when i wake up-
life; yet again
will feel real
tears aren't there
its anger
hating to think of your face
or to say your name
you laugh in my face
act like this is all a game
whipping your cruel harsh words in my face
wanting to get rid of me
kick me out of this place
help me leave; before i spit out these harsh bitter words
life is confusing. it all feels absurd
screaming out loud
pulling my hair
i stand out real far-it makes everyone stare
locked in my room; crying out loud
i don't blend in. I'm not part of the crowd.
I'm angry; and life is out of my reach.
i want to blend in
poison-like bleach
cutting; suffocation; drugs; anything
something that kills me
makes me DEAD
tie me up; a shot to the head
a poison to drink; instantaneously shot
nobody should care; for in time ill be forgot.
slit my throat; cut off my head
bitter words run through my mind
as i cry on my bed.
your stupid; you witch
your ugly; your fat
I'm just ending my life in harsh bitter words