Even in heaven

Walking through the graveyard
i passed my own grave
i just wanted to answer your question
but thats not all
i came down to tell you
the weathers never perfect
the sun doesn't always shine
and its even lonelier i heaven
than it is on earth
everyone is nice
everyone seems to care
but none of them understand
even though I'm in heaven
your voice brings it down
and whenever i think about you
the time stands still
and even in heaven
the edges around this hole in my chest
burn like a fresh made wound
people still judge you
and talk crap behind your back
and believe me if i could
i would kill myself
and be sent to earth
because even though its heaven
its miserable up here without you
and just you are on earth
I'm racing the speed of pain
and of course as usual
its all in vain
and everyone thinks heaven is so great
if it was i wouldn't need an escape
the only thing that keeps me sane
is your oh so sweet memories
even in heaven
i can barely breath
can you hear me scream
it hurts to see you in such misery
and your eyes drowning in tears
you may think your crazy
hearing me at night
but your not
even in heaven
you can talk to people
though they don't realize its real