Tormented Heart

Thinking back to the past
I am dying inside.
These memories of us stay
hidden so delicately.

I cannot rid you from
my mind and it hurts.
I wish for all the
pain to subside
and lock itself
away for eternity.

You are my curse, an
unforgotten piece of trash.

Killing you right now
would be a pleasure.
Watching as each bone
is ripped away.

Tomorrow will be
another day i suppose.
But what of these days
that come and go?

Will these thoughts
of us ever die?
Sitting here slashing
wrists I ask why.

You were everything
but then changed.
Everything was rearranged
with nothing but pain.

My tears fall so
blissfully now, thinking
of you kills me.

Like a photograph
you burn, imprinted in my head.
Each and every day
I wake up and hope i am dead.

But still i think of you....
Wishing to see you....
Why?
Why must i think of you this day?
You became nothing to me.
A curse with everything attached.
A death that never passed.
Yet you are still in my heart.
Right from the very start.
I want to forget and am still ripped apart.

Coldness running
through these bones.
I stay lonely in this
isolated and broken home.

The walls will stay
forever gray just as
my heart has become.

Dark and hollow
so filled with hate.
Each and every moment
passes with fate.

To me you are nothing
yet to my heart you
are everything.

Please kill me now
for I can no longer take this
overwhelming feeling for you.

I wish to you slit your
throat yet wrap
you in my arms.
To rip you from the
flesh you derive within
yet keep you safe and warm.

But still i think of you....
Wishing to see you....
Why?
Why must i think of you this day?
You became nothing to me.
A curse with everything attached.
A death that never passed.
Yet you are still in my heart.
Right from the very start.
I want to forget and am still ripped apart.

Now as I sit here and
write with blood
stained wrists.
I hope you still
think of me too from
everything we missed.

Waiting patiently is my
fate, in the mirror my
soul to take.

The rain has pushed its
face in view.
From all the
memories Ive
shared with you.

Die tonight my violent love
for evil runs high within
my blood.

Ever changing is
the pouring rain.
These clouds so
black with
lightning pain.

Forever this curse inside will live.
Until i die, I shall sleep
with eyes wide open on a
pillow of broken tears.