My apology

I'm sorry that I push you away
I'm sorry for the love I lack.
I'm sorry I keep you at a distance
I'm sorry for holding back.

I'm sorry that I don't kiss you and
that I don't trust you with my heart.
I'm sorry that each and every day
of my life I'm slowly falling apart.

I'm sorry for ever lying to you
for hiding behind my words.
I'm sorry for leading you to love me
and then for acting so absurd.

I'm sorry I make up so many excuses
for acting the way I did.
Sorry for making you think I was so
grown up then acting like a kid.

Sorry if I ever made you blame yourself
or made you think you did anything wrong.
I'm just insecure and confusing
and I've been immature all along.

I'm sorry if I ever made you feel unwanted
or for hurting you in anyway.
Sorry I keep saying sorry but I'll
always love you if that's okay.