Memories of today

These scars on a fragile body,
remind me, of all the pain i felt,
and all the pain i feel..

This razor, by my side
reminds me, of how much i await to feel
the release of pain and anger,
the pump of adrenaline

The blood on my wrists
reminds me,of how ignored i was and still am,
and how i long to take my last breathe..

The promise i made to her,
i morn to say, i could not keep
but i promise this,
that i did try..

No one understands how it feels
they all say I'm to young...
I talk to my mind,
Thoughts spin round and round
My only true friend,
My only true fiend..

I welcome the tears
and they smother my eyes,
and fall down my face,

I cant sleep any more,
I'm too scared of myself,
who i am,
and what I've become

this addiction is just getting worse and worse...
I'm too confused,
i don't know what I'm supposed to do...
What am i expected to do?
Please...HeLp Me..,
Someone......
Please.....