The unforgetable past.

My feelings aren't showing
knowing their flowing
in my mind just shining and glowing
drowning in the misery that haunts me
in the dark of night in my dreams i fight
the pain I've made it threw
parents fighting I'm torn between the two
i love him but i want a mothers love
who will leave who will i hug goodbye
as i cry in side wanting to die
because i love them both but they won't comply
as words have clashed in the past
they come back and cast me in to the memory
that was only a century ago
i told my mom I'm sorry i couldn't help i didn't know
for the feelings are hard to show, but i must let go
and talk, for the path of the past is hard to walk
going down memory lane being fought by thoughts
of my mom, and dad only leaving me scared
if you know how i feel, then you must know it's hard