For My Mother...

For my mother...

Instead of someone I can be proud of
You embarrass me.
Instead of someone I can look up to
You fall beneath me.
Instead of someone I can love
You disgust me.

I will lose no more sleep
Wondering if you are safe.
I will shed no more tears
Wanting what can never be.
I will sew up the tear in my heart
Giving you not one more thought.

The only constant I have from you,
Is the predictability of your instability.
The only memories I have from you,
Are the layers of hostility.
The only love I received from you,
Was purely motivated monetarily.

Drown in stupid pride.
Wallow there in loneliness,
Bolstered by the lies
You tell yourself to get through
Your miserable lot in life.

I dont care any more.

- winterseve28 05/26/07