I punish myself

I hold the blade down on my arm,
A tear rolls down my cheek.
I squeeze my eyes shut tight,
Wondering why I'm so weak.

I pull the blade across my wrist
Tearing appart the skin
Hypnotised i watch the blood
As i picture him

What did i do to you?
For you to treat me like this
I just wanted to be your girl
Your only little miss

You were my first boy
Why did you treat me so?
I can't stop wondering why
You never listened to my no!

I was too weak to push you off
I can't help blaming me
You've made my life so dark
I punish myself so i can see