Expression

I know I push you away
But that's my plea begging you to please stay
I act like I can do o.k. on my own
But that's only because I am used to being alone
I put up barriers to protect my heart
Because I have been hurt from the start
And I refuse to be hurt again
That is my worst fear
My soul cries tears
Every night
Because no one understands my pain
I might be the only one to blame
Because expressing myself is not easy
I'd rather keep everything on the inside
Only because I refuse to risk my pride
I know I don't open up to you
But right now I'm bearing my soul
If these words were clothes
I would be naked
I'm ready to be real with myself
I'm tired of faking it
I apologize for making it so hard
So hard to get to know me
I just want you to know I'm trying
But right now I need you
To help me through