Confusion

Omiter of emotion
Pusher of progress
Distantly achieved truth
Is there an achievement to possess?

Crawling in my throat
And in my ear to my mind
Erasing and confusing
Just a side effect accidentally found

Reaching down below
Like an animal without thought
A reaction comes back same
But is this what was sought?

Trust and paranoia mix
Causing angst and internal pain
Fake and true blur together
Certainty seems impossible to obtain

With fear comes offspring hate
But clinging still is battling affection
Still growing confusion lives
Still I choose gentle direction

Why let it in?
Fear risked for hope gained
Why try to improve
Why cant this seem sane?

Growing is history
Growing is strength
Blinded by what seems delightful
No one notices sin calls itself great

Virtue pushes itself strong
Conscious reminder that everythings a choice
Virtues hard to identify
What is good or evils voice?

A hand reaches out to help
A drowning lost mind
Reaches deep in their sea
With nothing but thoughts to find

A voice whispers out offers
Of money, love, and so much more
A minds thoughts could find their coarse
But what does that mind have in store?

A third voice sings no promise
A third voice just sings a chance
The third voice shows not its actions
The third voice hides its true stance

The third voice is that I'm lost with
I didn't choose, I was found
The third voice has no promises
In its shallows I'm afraid Ill drown

I try to give back
Thank it for its aid
I try to show it I care
Still wonder about its blade

Reaching down below
Like an animal without thought
A reaction comes back same
But is this what was sought?

Help from the helpless
Going both ways
Worrying if the other worries
Watching as everything sways

Growing bigger it scares me
Stronger were both entwined
I wonder what will happen
Wonder if its just in my mind

Trust and paranoia mix
Causing angst and internal pain
Fake and true blur together
Certainty seems impossible to obtain

I hope that good is growing
Evils unneeded insane
But in times like these its hard to tell
If good and evil could just be one in the same