Lost Within Myself

In these dark times of my life
I wonder why I'm still alive..

I awake to thoughts running through my head
Praying to God he wouldn't let me get out of bed

Getting dressed and applying makeup..
theres no point...it will run when me an him break up.

The family is suppose to be the ones u turn too...
but what do u do when u only have a few

At night I lay there an cry
All the while I hold a vile

Contain the contents to take my soul away
To let this be my very last day

I raise it to my lips and say a prayer
Praying that the news of my death spreads everywhere...

To know I could have been happy...instead I'm not....this is my oath..of the life lost..