Drowning

I find myself lost in this place filled with meaninglessness
Always on my way, somehow, but it's not my home
Had to leave you there, harder for me then was counted for
The distance is killing, second after second, damaging me deep within
It calls out every time my soul recognizes a feature that belongs to you

My strength is fading, replaced by confusion when I wasn't looking for a split second
A confusion existing of a pool which captures my tears and loneliness
A drowning confusion that gives opportunities for wonderful creation
But also provides room for storaged pain
And stimulates more darkness to come in that covers up my beautiful being
Where's my glory, my brightness?
Is it in you, or can't I find the place I left it in no more?

Feel like you haven't even seen me yet, barely touched all that I am
You looked at me, but did it strike you in your soul?
That last spark of special, glowing uniqueness and loving that was reserved to be with you
I think it couldn't find you due to the time
The time that wasn't there

Wondering what's causing this pain and feeds these feelings
It's something inside me I can not define
And something inside you I can not experience, see nor control
Considering your motives are not clear to me

Strength was built up like a wall, stood so solid for so long
It sold me out for your dream to come true
With no guarantees for nobody
So I find myself lost, in this place without a name
A place no-one wants to be, but I live in it

Everybody creates misery and grows in it, but tell me
In the end, will my soul be completed for what it deserves to be?
The journey which will tell all and holds every answer
Is the journey that's calling my name
As a soul mate walking the path of darkness, I wonder if you hear it too
And if you can take the way of letting go
So that emotions can be true as only an honest heart can be