Messed up!

I've really messed up
I've made so many mistakes
I have overfilled my cup
I've said many things that were fakes
I've lost so many friends
And I've lost so much
I went up the path and took the wrong bends
I was to turn back but i told myself "hush"
They would never know
But this was by far the worst
how could I have been so slow?
I've lost my trust
I've lost my friendships
I just wanna sit back and cry
I wanna sit with a pack of chips
But i cannot cry i have to keep my eyes dry
I have to stand up tall
And fix all that I've done
I don't wanna fall
I've fallen to much,i don't wanna lose the fun
I wanna make things right
Please just listen to me
Read what i write
listen to my plea!!!