I Find It Hard..

I find it hard to breathe at night
I find it hard to keep in sight
That you are gone, yet I'm still here
These thoughts I feel, are hard to bare

I take it in, in all the pain
I breathe it out and back in again
That you are dead, yet I'm alive
These thoughts I feel, the years I have cried

I find your photo and place it to my heart
I Find I hard to think of the last time I laughed
That I find hard, because that last time was with you
These thoughts I fell are hard to undo

I find it hard to take this knife
I find it hard to end my life
And I find it F**king Frustrating that you could do it
These Thoughts I fell, why did you put me through it