I hate myself for the things i say

Life has it's ups and downs
but for me it's just tears and frowns
i thought everything was going to be OK
why'd i has to say the things i said
emotions swirl around my head
of gloom and terror that lies strait ahead
I've betrayed my mother hurt my family
how could i act so foolish and obscene
she only thought of herself but i shouldn't have followed in her ways
i hate myself for the things that i say
i know i should be mad but i shouldn't have made
my future brother pay
they were all going to find out any way
i hate my self for the things that i say
i opened my moth and let the words spill
i find my self rolling down a a steep hill
i lost her trust, along with My dignity
i life will be full of uncertainty
i hate myself for the things that i say