What I hate the most

I hate the fact that
I can't kiss you anymore
even though it's the thing I want the most

I hate the fact that
soonly all your love for me will fade away
and I will lose, not only my boy, but my best friend

I hate the fact that
loving you hurts so damn much
but that it's still my one and only desire

I hate the fact that
there are still spots on your body
I haven't discovered

And what I hate the most is
knowing I'll never have that chance.