Father

Hearing everything thrown at me, but I feel unable to listen
While I still feel you by my side, I've ended up on this path again
Day and night struggling, and fighting for my own salvation
Reminded of death standing face to face with your reflection
Now my breath feels weaker and my will's been lacking ambition
Sometimes finding myself wishing, hoping for a faster reunion
No more fear of death for me now, living for it's my only purpose
It's not my life's dedication, but I just know fighting it is worthless
Mortality needs acceptance to be able to live a life of tranquility
But my set back was never accepting you being ripped from me
From that came depression, which lead to my own souls rejection
Leaving me empty enough to find comfort within this affliction
With a burdened mind slipping in and out of consciousness I pray
Your memory lives in me, I'm just so sorry for ending up this way
So I've been living here in our home, depleted for over ten years
And so advances the incessant count until death finally interferes . . .