Just Dress Up

My head is spinning
I can't seem to grip anything
I feel as though I am losing control

My body
Starving

My mind
Empty

My thoughts
Lost

My sanity
Gone

I am always the giver
But what do you do when you have nothing left

So many people expect so much out of me
I try to be everything they want

But what do you do when under all the masks I wear
Even the real me is fading

I can't quit now
I am starting to get good at playing dress up

But what do you do when these faces combine
And become my identity

Even if it's not me
This is what people want to see

I can't quit now
I am starting to get good at playing dress up

Everyone's happy
Even if it cost me my heart

But what do you do when the one you love
Notices the change and leaves

Looks like another broken heart to cover up with a smile
I am so use to it now,
I can barely even feel myself bleeding inside

Maybe becoming numb to this feeling,
is what is best

I can't quit now
I am starting to get good at playing dress up