Deppressing Gift

Deppresion.
the feeling of betrayal.
no one understands, i'm gone...no longer here.
friends.
there are none.
alone.
lonely.
No reason to walk this earth.
if no one understands
whats the point of living
there's so much this life demands.
I try to force a smile
for all the world to see
but the pain that grips my heart
creates a face of agony.
I laugh at your unfunny joke
to make you turn away
then I feel the tears return once more
the hundreth time today
I don't know why but I cry at the most unlikely times
but the sickening spirit holds me tight
"I have you now you're mine"
I hold myself back
knowing that this is no way to live
deppresion is an ugly thing
but one I'd never give