Describes pain

This face describes pain ,
not happiness
the lines indecate
all my struggles with this life
the hard times that have brought me to my knees
these eyes tell a story if you'd only look closely
they'de tell you were i've been and were i'm going
how many tears i've cried over losses and broken hearts
but that dosnt make me end my life
these lips as soft as velvet
like a wine glass to your lips
lips that you onced loved
but no longer belong to you
these hands were ment for holding
rough down to the knuckles
bearfinger tips
scratchy
soft skin
touchable
a girl with her hole life ahead
but she decides to end it
tonight
the blade goes rough on my skin as i think this over aagain
deciding what to do
I pull the blad closer to my skin
I hold it down until it cutts the skin
blood apears and I freak out again
screaming for god to help me
but he cant help me were i'm going
he cant touch me any longer
this boy I loved is at a loss for words
thought I loved him but wanted to end my life because of him
a supid decision that costed a life but hopefully one day we catch up in the presious life.