My Thoughts Are Choking On You

Whenever I used to think of you
A smile would appear on my face
Only now it's no longer a smile
But an expression of distaste

Would have done anything for you
Until you left me alone confused
Gave you my heart and soul
But it was me who you used

Happy to cause so many tears
Taking pleasure in my pain
Why did you do this to me?
Try and drive me insane?

Wanted to be with you always
Thought that you wanted me
All you wanted was to destroy me
Why did it take me so long to see?

Can't even describe the pain
Yet I'm filled with disgust
Wondering why I ever loved you
For you completely broke my trust