A lonely liar

How can I say that I'm a true liar inside
To once more fight to be able to breath

Temptation has got its hold around my neck
Suffocating my lonely heart

Falling to my face I let out the tears Ive been restless to hold inside
The lies I somehow believed are now hitting me all at once

How could I have been so vulnerable?
Crying out to Jesus Christ I beg for answers to my life

All I want is for the guy who was my everything to pick me up and carry me away
To renew my broken heart and tell my every things Gunna be just fine

But I remember that fairy tails dont exists anymore
Only in a childs mind are they truly real

It was just so sudden when I walked out of his life
And had to go my separate way

Its what I need to move on but how can I just leave him lost and all alone?
Everyday I wonder if he thinks of me

Like a missing instrument in an orchestra
I feel lost, nowhere to be found

I miss him with all my heart and more
But I cant even speak these words to his face

What would I give to make all this sin vanish
So I can at least be his friend

Ive messed up and this time I cant fix it
This is just one broken puzzle piece to my life

Knowing that God can use this for good, i hold my head high
As hard as it is, I start over again

Earning back trust and respect, I rebuild hope in myself
The ring on my hand symbolizes my purity

Help me Jesus to stay pure and holy
So pain like this doesnt hit me from behind

Comfort me in my weakness, purify me from my mistakes
And love me passionately as I try and live for You forever~