Is it you?

Smiling
looking in those eyes once again
I can't help to feel the way I used to
when I was with you..
But almost a year has past since
you messed it up-
or did I mess it up?
I still wonder.

Your kisses
still to this day hold me in a daze
and I cant help to feel guilty
for letting you do it again..
your lips lingering on my own
our breath escaping
hands gripping on eachother tight
as if reaching out for something that was once lost..

In my mind
I still wonder if I had made a mistake.
It keeps me up on some nights
and on others i awake
drenched in sweat with your name still stuck in my throat
like the tears that wont leave my eyes..

Do you feel this way?
this pain that just wont leave you
choking you
making you ache for that feeling once again
Just a month ago you cried and cried..
but was it true?
I felt that ache when i was trying to drink it away
in vain...

just hold me again
one last time
just let it all go
i need you i need you i need you