Temporary Secret (lyrics)

You asked me, what I had to say.
I breathed in all my words.
It might be, a big mistake
but I can't have my pain, yours.

So maybe, this is lying.
But baby, I'm trying.
-To keep you safe from me.

See, I lost you... I know I did.
I broke down - you don't know I did.
I'd tell you, if I knew how to
But I need to see you smile
-So it's my secret for a while.

When we're talking, about nothing
It's still so much to me.
When you're sleeping, it's something
Because I dream you're dreaming of me.

I tell you, I'm OK,
I promised I'm OK.
And maybe, that's not OK.

But I lost you... I know I did
I broke down - you don't know I did
I'd tell you, if I knew how to
But I need to see you smile,
-So it's my secret for a while.

Oh it kills to see you with her,
But I love to see you at all.
Maybe I'm addicted to the paralyzing fall,
And maybe you're just worth the pain that makes me crawl.

Because I lost you, I hated it
I break down - you don't know it
I tell you, you just can't hear me
Your smile makes me cry,
Because I'm still missing you all this time.