I hate the way I can't hate you

I thought that things would be fine
Just like this love of mine
I lock what i feel up
In a box that is sealed shut
But it seems like you can open it still
Its like when I'm around you
I can't cover up what i want to

I still love you even though it will never work
My love for you was never just one big quirk
Now seeing you everyday
Is like stabbing pain
Just the sound of your voice still sends goosebumps down my spine
And yet i still cover up what i want to say with the usual line "I swear I'm fine"

You look at me and i know you see
What feelings lie within me
Take me in your arms and tell me how you feel
And make me remember that something was actually REAL.