Noway to Escape This Fate

There is nothing I can do
A disorder is all this is
And it tears me up inside.

The ups and downs
The sickening feelings
Of not being able to escape
This fate.

It ruined my mother
It will ruin me too .

The Downs;
Thoughts of death
No way to escape
No need to be happy
All I feel are
Tears of yesterday
And fears of all days to come

The Ups;
Happiness
Nothing can stop me now
I'm on top of the world
I'm everything your not.

Then I drop
And down I go
With nothing to gain
Knowing this ruined my mother
And it is soon to ruin me too.