Repeat

Here i find myself again,
in the same state of mind,
i always end up in,
confused and broken,
used and soft spoken,
i assure others I'm OK,
only because the truth is still so hard to say,

who am i to stop whats already begun,
though its wrong,
i know you cant help how you feel for someone,
when the warmth of there embrace,
makes you feel like you belong,
like you exactly in the right place,
i cant take that away from people i love,
nor can i run,

to flee,
from these images that kill me to see,
is not the right move to make,
i know she loves me,
if only that were enough to keep me from heart break

sadly, its not

how many times do i have to relive this pain,
only until my lesson will not be forgot,

how many times do i have to hurt myself over and over again,
only until i can remember the cause of the same depression I've already been in,

..so many time before...

will i ever be aware, ahead of time ,
and be able to stop the agony so it doesn't happen once more.