Life story

This is more of a song,story,and poem mix. This song,story,and/or poem is dedicated to Nathan,Caitlin,Ben,Emily,and Laura

why can't you see how much you meant to me you were my world but you never really understood how i felt about you. There was no female figure who inspired me to live life to the fullest extent and not let anything get you down you literally became part of me. Now however I've been forced to be away from you and i feel like a part of me has been taken away like there is something missing in my heart that is not replaceable. However you probably don't even care that I'm gone i was practically not existent when i was there to you and so I'm sure this move has only made that further more possible and I'm not sure you care infact i think thats what you wanted so I'm happy for you:you finally got your wish congratulations
i just happened to end up 500 miles in Texas now you don't have to put up with me again however it still hurts without you here i miss the days when you would get mad at me because i unintentionally made you mad your a really sensitive person and i didn't understand that till it was to late now I'm 500 miles away and sometimes i feel like i wanna die there's things that only 2 of my friends would ever be able to understand i feel like this move to Texas didn't totally hurt our friendship but it hurt it tremendously and i think it's my fault that we moved it feels like s have surrounded me and i can't get them off i sometimes wish to . I feel like my best friend has been in a sense taken away from me and in a sense he has i miss him more than anyone could ever imagine he was one of the only true fiends i ever had and now he's physically not here when i need him the most and life is a literal hell i just want things to go back the to the way they used to be i wish i didn't have to be d on a daily basis 2nd thing i think one of my new good friends has been taken away almost completely from me it feels like right when i actually started to know him he was taken away from me.
thirdly i felt like my 2 of the people i considered to be like my sister to be taken out of my life almost completely and that pain is unbearable. To tell you the truth this move has ruined a good part of my life because even though i have friends in Texas it will never be the same as my friendships with Nathan,Caitlin,Laura,Ben,and Emily i wish i could change the circumstances if there was anything i could do i would do it because life for me right now is a living hell.