The Vignette Capers part 1

Inside the little boy plays war games and fantasizes about having a club that only boys can join. The men make fun of him saying that any boys club needs many more women; the more the merrier, but he tries to ignore their taunts and brutish mannerisms by reverting to baby talk; A time when his mother would comfort him.

His mom is at her boyfriend's house and he will be staying the night there, listening to her mom and her flavor of the week party and drink it up with their friends in the backyard, while he has no bedtime and plays his wargames. He's 7 years old.

The flavor of the week shows a cell phone video of his son who is not in his custody due to a drug bust. The video is of his 3 year old son head banging to Slayer, and throwing up his devil horns with his hands, pretending to play an electric guitar.

Everyone commented how "badass" the video was, and how his son is so tough and cool, while the boy playing wargames outside listens to his mother say how she wishes that he was a little tougher and didn't have so much finesse. A mother's love and respect and admiration is the worst thing you can lose if you're a young boy. It's not his fault that he's turning out gay and he most likely doesn't understand his overwhelming desires to act feminine. His dad is unattentative, consumed with is new wife and new child, and his mom is basically a drunken prostitue. A sperm repository for the bar fight winner, but this doesn't make the boy toughen up.

If anything, it makes him revert back to a child, back to being a feminine baby, with no gender socialization, and since everyone he hates the most (the men having sex with his mother) tell him to be tough, man-up, put your dukes up, hit him, etc. etc. etc. - he becomes the opposite of what he hates. Gay. Feminine. He becomes the mother of himself, as well as the father, since he is his own attention. And he plays wargames and he pretends that he is in that battle for real and he is secretly killing everyone that slaps his mother's butt, is a loud drunk, is taking away his childhood, and won't talk to him on his own level. He is, as emotionally disturbed as they come.

And he does what anyone would do.

He adapts, evolves, buries, fights, dresses up in women's clothing and takes his secrets and his burning desires to be honest to the grave. His parents, his family, the people who are supposed to be the absolute closest to him, will not allow him to be himself. So he will live in a dishonest world, a world that started out as dishonest, and will remain dishonest, until all is ashes. And dust is reverted back to energy, and the infinite, becomes finite.