I wish it could be

I hate you
I should
But somehow i don't

My bully
My friend
You swap between both

I want you to go
or do i want you to stay?
confused.
you hurt either way

I care
but i don't want to
I wish i could not
I'm scared that I'll lose you
but that's what you want

can you not see?
do you not hear?
how i want you with me
how close we could be

so cold
icy
you to me
warm
tender
i wish it could be