If you'll belive me (i hate you)

You look down at me
like I'm a kind
of f**ked up useless freak
i know you do,i read your mind

well maybe i am
so f**king what
I'm still your child
but you don't care if i am or not

so sorry that I'm not perfect
that i didn't grow up right
but you try to change me
it just causes another fight

your the one with the problems
Your the one who's f**ked
your the one who's mind is warped
so yes,i do give a f**k!

stop accusing me of all this s**t
stop the lies that you make up
stop f**king around with my mind
stop making me self destruct

your not helping me at all
your making everything worse
you don't f**king care at all
you're like a f**king curse

you point out all the things
that make my life so shit
you talk about them all the time
so i f**king can't escape it

you should know it hurts me
are you f**king blind
you drive me f**king crazy
you drive me outta my mind

you go on about me
make up all these lies
make me sound like a freak
you make me wanna die

i close my eyes tightly
and try to hold it in
i clench my fists and pinch myself
to make sure I'm living

the rage keeps building up
my skin's gone totally red
shut the f**k up for once
unless you want ME dead

every time this happens
i take the anger out on me
i make my self suffer for it
until i don't want to be

you'll never know the truth
because there is no trust
you wouldn't believe me
when i say i hate you...
but believe me...you must..