I can't take it anymore, Roxas

I cried, I screamed.
Nothing worked.
I didn't sleep easily every night.
I always went to sleep with tears in my eyes,
and darkness in my heart.
I cared for him, but why did he turn me into a Heartless?
Did I do something wrong?
His blue eyes were so meaningful,
and his big heart made me fall for him until
I could fall no more.

I walk down the dark path of life,
alone, cold, and scared.
No one seemed to care,
Not even you, Roxas.
You didn't even ask me what was wrong.
Nobody did.
They thought I was lying about how I loved Sora.
They all said I was heartless and stupid.
They all believed Namine and forgot that I was human, too.
But you didn't.
You may be my friend,
But you didn't support me that much.
I know you couldn't stand my complaints.
I know you were frustrated,
And you didn't want to admit it,
Because you felt that I needed someone to listen.
And you did that for me.
I understand you wanna be strong for me,
But you don't have to listen if you don't want to.

In case you are, here goes.
I've been falling for Sora too much.
You supported me, and I appreciate it.
But when I told you I almost killed myself,
You sounded frustrated with me.

I took a knife and almost stabbed myself,
When my tears stopped me.
I dropped to the floor,
Crying and screaming.
No one heard me.
They thought I was screaming of a bug,
But I was screaming of the torture I was going through.
I can't take it anymore, Roxas.
I want to die.
I don't wanna be a speck of darkness in everyone's lives.
Everything in my life is fading away.
I am heartless,
No one can help me now.
Not even you, the one who was always with me.
The one who supported me through bad times.
You made me laugh and smile,
You made me blush.
But I just don't care anymore --
I don't even know who I am anymore.
I'm not Kairi anymore.
Nor am I Qistina.
I am a Heartless, no --
Worser --
A Nobody.
With no feelings and a false heart.
I was stupid to fall for Sora,
And now I want that mistake of mine to go away,
so now I will leave you, I don't care if you suffer,
Because I am the one that suffered more than any of you.
Goodbye, Roxas, Sora, Namine, Axel, and everyone.
I just can't take it anymore, so now you can say goodbye to
Kairi and Qistina.
And say Hello to Heartless ...