Mixed Emotions

You're messing with my emotions and I don't know what to do,
Silently you know I'm still in love with you.
We are both seeing other people stop making me want this more,
even though truly its you who I adore.
You always know the right things to say, and when you hug me my heart melts away.
You say you care about me and that to you i mean so much, but yet you left me with overwhelming lust.
You mess with my head you mess with my mind, making me want to tell you how i feel, wanting to confide.
Then i see you put your arms around my friend, suddenly i realize that this was the end.
The end for us because you don't need me, I just wish i could make you see.
I want to tell you that i love you and i need you near, I'm standing in my room shaking in fear.
I have my knife in my hand, ready to leave my life on this land.
I close my eyes and see your sweet face, and those memories I can't erase.
I wouldn't want to i hold them so dear to my heart, then I realize from you I don't wish to part.
I put down the knife and get my keys, because i need to thank you for making me see.
Its not the end of my life because you're not just mine, I put on a smile and say I'll be just fine.