Fighting for a family

Sometimes I pray, to god at night
Hoping tomorrow, will turn out right
Maybe one day, Ill understand
That this was not what, you had planned

I yearn for your smile, and your touch
But maybe for you, this is too much
Do you know that, I cry myself to bed
And wish you would give, me a hug instead

I get left alone, to make my own dinner
I once thought that, you were a winner
I try to talk to you, but you refuse
You would rather go, and drink some booze

Why do you do this, to yourself dad
I realize when mom died, that you got sad
But you dont need to drink, your problems away
You need be stronger, theres a better way

I need you to be the father, you use to be
When you and I would play ball, when I was three
But instead I sit alone, in the dark hall
While I hear you, tumble and fall

I wish mom was here, to see you like this
Then maybe we wouldnt, be in this mess
I know its hard dad, but youre living a lie
And I know youre scared, but you have to try

Because you need me, just like I need you
Maybe one day, well make it through
And be the family, we once use to be
And for once in our lives, we can be happy