My Fear of Telling You

I love you so much
It is really true
But I can not say it to you
I wish I can scream it
So the whole world can hear it
But in my heart there is a fear
A fear of you not loving me
I think of you all the time
In every second in my life
Because of you my life is upside down
Floating thoughts of you are always in my mind
My heart calls your name every time it beats
I think of you when I eat
When I am lying on my back ready to sleep
Even when I am walking in the street
Sometimes I close my eyes
And begin to paint pictures of you and me
Your big beautiful eyes
Your sharp thick brows
Your full lips
Your arms wrapped around me
Keeping me so warm and safe
With your kisses begin to drop
Starting on my head
Floating down to my face
And you reach my lips
Giving me a small kiss
I look into your glaring eyes
Not believing what happened
And longing for more
So I close my eyes
As you reach down again
I feel your soft full lips lock into mine
And your grip tightens about my hips
I reach and wrap my arms around your neck
Drawing your body closer to mine
Your hands begin to move up and down my back
I begin to breathe harder
While enjoying your lips
My heart was screaming I love you
And I felt your heart say it too
I hear a loud noise
And I open my eyes
Finding myself back but in my room
My tears begin so slide down my face
Soaking my white fluffed pillow
Wishing that my dream did not end
Wishing that I would be able to tell you one day
That I love you and I want you to stay
But until then I will keep thinking of you
Talking to you every day
But not being able to tell you
Because of my fear of you not loving me