Lost me

I'm in love
yet I'm slowly hated
I'm all here
yet I've slowly faded

I'm so happy
yet i sit and cry
I'm so sick of your shit
yet still you lie

I'm cutting myself
but my wounds wont heal
I'm killing myself
like it's no big deal

I've hit the end
cause all has failed
I'm now totally lost
like my train has derailed

I've lost all faith
every ounce of hope
I'm coming to a dead end
i just can't cope

I've come off the track
but this far I've come
pain hits all at once
in one lump sum

i have no where to go
who do i turn to
i can feel the broken heart
i want it to be through

i miss myself
since i went away
the new me is here
and she's here to stay

I'm broken and bleeding
lost and used
I'm in too much pain
I'm far to confused

my tears fall
my blood flows out
nobody can hear me
and i cant shout

i wish i could remain
to see another day
but there's no way in hell
that i could ever stay