Blade to Skin

Since I first put the blade to my skin
Nothings been the same
At first it was so relieving
The pain, it made me sane

But each time I'd have to cut deeper
To reach that sweet relief
To find that level of peace
Became my only belief

But one day I had to end it
The deep wound could spread no more
I let myself drain away
On the bathroom floor

Yet I awoke to my dismay
In a bright, white room
With bandages on my body
Hiding scars that continued to loom

They wouldn't let me cut
And filled me up with drugs
To the point where I couldn't feel
The warmth of all the hugs

They thought that I was better
And maybe it was true
But once I had escaped
I drifted back into endless blue

My friend, the blade, it called
And pulled me from the dark
It let me feel the pain
Get a whole, brand new start

I cut too deep
And let it stay
I really meant to end
My life today

And when you come
To see me here
I want you to know
That I held you dear

There's nothing you could
Have ever done
Just let me bleed...
Just let it run...