Never me

Never been kissed
never been loved
always been missed
always been shoved

never embraced
never been touched
my hands so numb
never been clutched

feeling like I'm never needed
feeling so displaced
the border to bear, far exceeded
all my life...such a waste

there was never a flirt
just always been hurt
my heart is broken
my veins are open

it's never me
enjoying his life
never me
getting relief
the sky so black
no sun that could shine
and so I resign

isn't there anything more to come?
will I ever see the sun?
or will I stay here all alone
the word "beloved" still unknown...