My Will To Forget You

Fixed upon a memory,
A face of a total blur;
I think I blacked out for a second there
Because I suddenly feel insecure
Everything wasted away so fast
It seems that happiness never last
I thought my life was changing for once
But I only ended up here.

Sometimes I wish I could leave
Sometimes I wish I could erase
But wishing gets me nowhere
Just here, once again, standing in front of the mirror
Staring out to place
So far away
Its my only escape
I find it in my eyes
The only way I can see is through the darkness
Its been so long that I know my way around
I've memorized the number of steps
To where I can get out
It takes a lot
But I know what to do
Starting with myself
I need to learn to forget you.

I'm tired of everything right now
Tired of the words, tired of this situation
Tired of trying so many times
And only ended up back where it started
Starting with you
I'm not saying I regret it
I'm not saying that I hate you
I'm saying that its tiring
Of always having to deal with you.
I'm sorry, but I gave in
I gave into life
Gave into destiny
The reasons are so clear
Only a TRUE woman could understand me
I'm just speaking the truth
I never knew myself better than now
In life there are only 2:
"haves and have-nots"
I'm in between our individual thoughts
I'm trying to escape you
Trying to help us begin new..
I just wish I could leave
For you and for me
Lets leave it how it is
Leave it the way it should be
I'm tired of fighting against my will
I'm tired of all this tragedy
I'm tired of it - beginning with you.
I'm sorry..but I can't...
Forget me just like I'm trying to forget you.

(9.13.07)
@ 8:09p