Damn.
Everything went by so fast
The life I had
Moved on without me
Left me here
Cold and in despair
But who cares
If life wasn't fair?
Maybe the neglect
Maybe the lack of respect
Maybe I'm just judging
For no real reason?
I don't know.
But the life I knew
When I believed
That I had found my place
My purpose;
Just faded away
Like some placebo
With a lil side-effect
I busted my neck
Trying to find out who I was
But now do I realize
That I haven't found the end.
The mere thought
Of having to deal with it
And living in doubt
Living in my own self-pity
For not judging correctly
At first glance.
Its more than just doing math
I had it all planned out
But I never thought
That I'd end up like this
With a slap in the face
And splattered on the ground
With purple blood
Spurting out of my mouth
Feeling groggy;
Over medicated
Because I can't calm myself down.
Its too bad
But in the end
I made the mistake
And I have to fight for myself
Because even when I thought
That they'd be there to back me up
They bailed out.
Foolish.
Dumb.
Pathetic.
The 3 words that say it all
And refer to me
As the one
That ruined years of her life
Over something useless.
I'm the only one.
