Should I ?

My heart is pounding very hard
i cant regain consciousness
look around my room
i see nothing
black walls no light
no windows, NO nothing
only me and my feelings
and my knife
should i or should i not?
my heart is racing
i pick up my knife
i hold it close
flashbacks of my life running through my head
soon enough a light pees through
no more BLACK around me
its bright, to bright
have i died
i look at my body
no marks
confusion runs through my mind
did i kill myself
did someone stop me
should i be living
should i die

by Amber Cunningham